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"Do You Ever Miss Me?"
By Eian Flannagan

Rating: PG
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Description: Answer to the October 2008 One Word Challenge from the TRIS BBS - "trick" or "treat"--- alt-post *the_abomination* story.

Author's Note: Italics denote flashback scenes.

treat-or-treat [trik-er-treet]
1. To engage in the practice of asking for treats on Halloween and threatening to play tricks on those who refuse.

October 31, 2167


Trick-or-Treat.  She’d never really gotten it.  Not really.  She’d come close…in all the years he’d known her, though.  He smiled wistfully and tuned out the ceremony; his mind drifting in remembrance…


Do you ever miss me? 


             October 31, 2151


“Trick-or-Treat, Sub-Commander.”

T’Pol stood in her doorway and gazed blankly back at Commander Tucker, blinking slowly and saying nothing.

Trip sighed.  “Did you not research Halloween at all?  That’s so not like you.”  Trip was concerned.  He and T’Pol had reached a sort of…understanding…in recent weeks.  He’d confessed to reading her private mail, and she’d confided in him.  He’d apologized, and she’d forgiven.  And she’d…


Somehow, that made his efforts to seek her out not seem so…ridiculous.  Getting her to cooperate, however…

Well, he was still working on that.

Trip planted his hands on his hips and studied her demeanor, noting her less rigid posture and shadowed eyes.  “You feeling alright?  I know Phlox released you yesterday, but---”              

T’Pol straightened her spine.  “I am fine.”              

“You were hit by a plasma bullet.”

“Nevertheless…I am fine.”              

Trip’s gaze narrowed.  “Right.”  He stepped back away from the door.  “Sorry to bother you, Sub-Commander.”  He turned, took two steps away and stopped.  His shoulders drooped, and he pivoted back around on his heel.  His gaze softened.  “I’m a great listener if you ever need to, you know…talk.”              

“That will not be necessary.”

Trip smiled gently.  “Probably not. But just in case it ever is…”    he let his voice trail off.

T’Pol stared at him for a moment before tipping her head in the slightest of nods.


Trip smothered a smirk, not wanting to broadcast the wrong impression from his prominent seat on the dais.  She never got that ‘talking’ thing down either.  He let his mind continue to drift… 


October 31, 2152


Trip juggled three PADDs and a cup of coffee as he tried to open his office door.  He managed to bump the release with his elbow, hurry to his desk, and drop the PADDs just in time to prevent his java from spilling all over himself and the deck.  It was as he was sitting down that his attention was snared by items decidedly out-of-place on his workspace --- a desk typically draped only by the trappings of engineering minutiae.                  

“What the hell?” He leaned in to get a closer look, a smile spreading quickly across his face.  He grabbed up the three inch by three inch card that leaned against the colorful items.

Research indicates an opaque spectral

apparition is an appropriate representation

 of this Terran holiday.  The purpose of the

confection, however, remains illusive.




The card was unsigned.  Trip eyed the colorful items in bemusement.

Sitting in the middle of his desk was a six-inch stuffed ghost. 

Holding a plastic pumpkin.               

Filled with candy corn.

“Trick-or-Treat, T’Pol,” he murmured quietly.


Trip rubbed a hand against his face, surreptitiously wiping away a tear.  He distantly heard a somber Admiral take his turn at the podium. 


October 31, 2153


Trip reached out to press the chime.  At her summons, he entered T’Pol’s dimly lit quarters.  The Vulcan was seated on a cushion in the middle of the room.  He paused two steps inside the door, allowing it to close behind him.  “Hi.”

“Good evening.  Please…remove your shirt and sit facing away from me.”   
Trip pulled off his shirt and took the required position.  He flinched only slightly at the first touch of her fingers upon his skin.  “Trick-or-Treat, T’Pol.” 

T’Pol sat back and dropped her hands.  “I still do not fully understand this phrase.”

“You’re kidding me.” Trip looked over his shoulder at her.  “This is  your third Halloween on the  ship!”

T’Pol lifted an eyebrow.  “Vulcans do not ‘kid.’  Face forward and breathe.”  She resumed manipulating the neural nodes on his spine.

Trip shrugged.  “Trick-or-Treat, T’Pol.  It means you have to give me a treat.  If you don’t, I’ll play a trick on you.”

“Does not ensuring you sleep uninterrupted  through the night constitute a ‘treat,’ Commander?”

Trip sighed.  “Never mind.”

October 31, 2154


Trip raced down the wooded path.  He leapt over tree roots and dodged branches, his feet pounding the dirt.  When he finally skidded to a halt, he fell to his knees beside a prone and bleeding T’Pol.  Trip scooped the petite Vulcan into his arms and headed back from whence he came, a young MACO keeping pace alongside him.

She  regained consciousness while he was running back to the Shuttlepod.  “Trip,” she whispered weakly.

He glanced down at her quickly before turning his focus back to the uneven terrain.  “Let me guess?” his tone heavy with exasperation.  “This year you chose ‘trick’?”


Do you ever miss me?


Trip crossed his arms over his chest and rocked back in his chair.  He kept his gaze on the ground.


October 31, 2161


Trip opened his apartment door and blinked in surprise.  “Thought you were shipping out today?”

T’Pol calmly stood on his doorstep, hands clasped behind her back.  “I am.  This evening at 1700hrs.”

He stepped back and waved her in.  “Well, not that I’m not glad to see ya, but what are you doing here? Shouldn’t you be getting  ready to leave?”

She nodded.  “I am nearly prepared.”  She watched him closely as he crossed the room.  “Are you well?”

Trip waved off her concern.  “Today’s a good day.  Most of them are now.”  He looked over at her and winked.  “You don’t have to check up on me anymore.”

T’Pol straightened indignantly.  “That was not the purpose of my visit.”

Trip narrowed his gaze and tipped his head in thought.  Like a light bulb clicking on over his head, he brightened.  “Trick-or-Treat, T’Pol.”

Her brow rose in acknowledgment and she slowly approached him.  When she was close enough to touch, she leaned up and pressed her lips to his cheek, lingering for a moment.

Trip’s mouth dropped open.  Several seconds passed before a wide smile graced his features.  “Not sure I deserved that,” he murmured.  “You probably should have given me a ‘trick’.”

T’Pol crossed back to his front door and opened it.  At the threshold, she looked over her shoulder and again lifted her brow.  “Who’s to say I didn’t?” 


October 31, 2163


Trip entered his office at Headquarters and absently moved to his desk.  A wave of déjà vu swept over him when he saw what lay there.

            A bucket of candy corn.

            And a note.

Still illusive.




           Trip tapped the card against his chin and sighed.  “I love you, lady,” he murmured with regret.


October 31, 2166


It was late when Trip finally entered his apartment.  He carelessly tossed his satchel full of  manuals on the sofa and immediately went looking  for something to drink.  As he passed his workstation,  a flashing light caught his eye.  He paused to key up his comm. message to play while he continued on to the kitchen.

When he heard nothing from the message, he looked around the corner.  A weary grin surfaced.  There it was on the screen. In big, orange letters.




It was the last communication he’d gotten from her.  Trip gazed sightlessly over the gathered crowd.


Do you ever miss me?


She’d never really gotten it.  Not once in all the years he’d known her.  He smiled tearfully and again tuned out the ceremony.  The bugle.  The shots. 


Trip wiped the moisture from his eyes.


He raised his face toward the sky, renegade tears continuing to escape from tightly closed lids.  As the shots rang out, memories rained down upon him in a firefight of epic proportions.



Do you ever miss me?

I’ll try to remember that.

I have more letters in my quarters. Would you like to read those as well?

That would imply that my subconscious mind controls my decisions. It doesn't.


Are you implying I'm making sexual advances?

The risk of paralysis is minimal. Breathe.

Do you ever miss me?

You're implying that I'm attracted to you.

Which would mean you're attracted to me. It goes with the assumption.

You think that the loss of a colleague or friend doesn't affect us? It does.

Do you ever miss me?

I am not old. I will only be sixty-six years old on my next birthday.

Vulcans appreciate beauty.

I'm grateful that you're here.

Do you ever miss me?

I'm learning, it seems for the first time, what it truly means to be Vulcan.

Are you leaving because of me?

There's a long-held belief that when a Vulcan mates, there's a shared psychic bond.

Do you ever miss me?

It proves that even the most disagreeable species have some positive attributes.

Wait. Trip! I want you to come back.

Do you ever miss me?

I can't explain how it exists, but I know it does. There's a child out there, and it's ours.

Her name is Elizabeth.

Do you ever miss me?


However long it may be, I believe I'm going to miss you.

Trip gasped; the pain of loss acute.


Do you ever miss me?

He detected a shadow falling across his person and opened his eyes to the unwelcome sight of a Starfleet Lieutenant holding out a bundle of fabric.

Even blinded by tears he recognized the tightly bound triangle.

Do you ever miss me?

How was he to know she’d made him her next-of-kin?  She’d never told him.

Do you ever miss me?

“Captain Tucker, sir.  As a representative of Starfleet, it is my high privilege to present you this flag. Let it be a symbol of the grateful appreciation the United Federation of Planets feels for the faithful and distinguished service rendered to the Federation by your loved one.”

Do you ever miss me?

Oh, God.

Do you ever miss me?

Every damned day, darlin’.

Do you ever miss me?

Every damned day.

“Trick-or-Treat, T’Pol.”




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